In spring of 2009, with our newest son at the tender age of just 5 months, daddy was pulled out of the home for the 3rd time to fight in a war in a far away land. This time was a bit different as now I had two young sons and our precious first born daughter, Princess.
Princess, whose heart had been torn in half all those deployments before, would have her heart torn into many pieces – this time in a different way. This time, aside from already feeling the pain of pre-deployment, her daddy was slotted to fly to Afghanistan just one day BEFORE her 8th birthday. It was so hard for me to see my baby girl’s heart taken and stomped on the ground. It was so hard to see her so angry at her daddy, my husband, for something that was out of his control. I hurt to see the pain in his eyes while she treated him like the dirt underfoot. All I could do was pray for the both of them and lovingly hold her in my arms when she broke down crying and telling me that she “hated him.” She hated him for leaving us again. She hated the US Army for taking him away all these times. She just wanted him to “go” so that everything would be “better.” I knew in my heart that her pain was unbearable for her little 7-year-old heart to handle alone.
I pointedly talked with her about Jesus and how he was able to make her broken heart whole. I gave her a bit more “candid” insight to her mothers sin stained past and how Jesus made me new. I was able to point her to the one who is ABLE AND MIGHTY to save. I constantly asked my heavenly Father to “sanctify” her by HIS TRUTH…HIS WORD IS TRUTH (John 17). It was rough, but once again, WE OVERCAME. God got us through this hard time of transition and brought us into His peace – like only He can do. And when we celebrated Princess’ 8th birthday 2 days early, she was in love with her daddy once again. Thank you Lord. I sit here in tears as I reminisce on His faithfulness, His patience, His grace, His forgiveness…..HIS LOVE.
The very next day, daddy would begin his 3rd journey on a long deployment to another land. A land that needs Jesus more than I will ever understand. A land where HIS HOLY boots (yes, I mean my husbands) set forth and declare the Word of TRUTH by way of the anointing given to him by God alone. An anointing that destroys burdens and removes yokes of slavery. An anointing that we, as believers of Jesus carry, and if we so dare to – can USE FOR HIS GLORY. As much as it ALWAYS HURTS me to say good-bye to my best friend, my husband, my love, I always remember there is a greater war that is at play – the battle for souls to enter into the kingdom of God. “Knowing” this doesn’t stop the pain, or the hurt, but does give me great peace – a peace I cannot live without.
Marriage, Family, and Homeschooling Part 1
Marriage, Family, and Homeschooling Part 2
Marriage, Family, and Homeschooling Part 3
Marriage, Family, and Homeschooling Part 4
Marriage, Family, and Homeschooling Part 5